To be honest I don't even know what to say here - this year was the weirdest Thanksgiving of my life. This is the first year we had Thanksgiving without Mom, which in and of itself is depressing, but luckily I didn't really have time to get depressed! I ended up working Thanksgiving from 4pm-2am and then I was back at work at 11am-10pm on Friday - this was great opportunity for some extra cash, but kept us home for Thanksgiving. We ended up cooking and having Dad, Arnold, my Grandma and Jess' Dad all here. Jess fried a turkey and we all had a nice time, but I couldn't seem to enjoy it like I normally would time with family. It could have been the impending doom working the holiday, but I'm pretty sure it was because such an important part of my world was missing. I know that this holiday season is going to be hard, but it I am determined to keep my head up. The best thing that could have happened to me was to have Jacob because I would be lost in a sea of darkness if it wasn't for his amazing smile and the constant joy that he brings us. Thanksgiving may have passed with little more than a whisper of glee, but I have faith that it will return to the joyous family time I remember.
I think the first order of business to getting ready to really enjoy Jacob's first Christmas is to get out all of the decorations tomorrow and start creating our own winter wonderland! Well, maybe not quite that, but it is definitely time to get out the lights and to trim a tree!
